Surpise! Today I found out I am pregnant. According to the wonderful Clear Blue Easy digital pregnancy test, I am allegedly 2-3 weeks along.
I am keeping this blog private at the moment because unfortunately, this is not the first time I have had a positive pregnancy test in the last few months.
I had first found out that I was pregnant back in August, the Tuesday before my best friend Steph's wedding, and our trip to the States. I was beyond pumped about it. I even kept it a secret from my bestest until the Sunday after all of Steph's wedding festivities. They say you aren't supposed to tell people until you are at least three months along, but come on, Steph is my best friend!
Of course my mom knew too and a couple friends figured us out along the way because we didn't have our "excuses" down yet. Apparently me not drinking raised alarm bells with several of my friends... I feel like I should be embarrassed of my wino rep!
Anyway, to make a long story short, I had a little scare that led to an early scan that showed I had two gestational sacs in my uterus...twins! The little scare got worse the day after the scan and I ended up losing the babies a few days later. I lost them the day I would've been 8 weeks.
It was the second hardest thing I've gone through thus far in my life. There isn't too much out there (at least in London) in terms of support after a miscarriage. I'm lucky to have really amazing family and friends that kept checking on me. The next few weeks were dark and emotional, but eventually you realize that, as usual, life goes on.
After 6 weeks of waiting, I was a little annoyed that my body was quite back to normal. These last two days I just really felt like something was off so I took a pregnancy test before I broke down and made an appointment with a doctor for tests. And there you have it... preggers again!
Please pray for me that this one sticks.
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